This year I’ve had many goals.
I made a New Years resolutions board and the whole thing. I even look at it periodically to see how I’m doing. Some days it is motivating…others I feel like I could be doing more, pushing myself further. Conquering the world.
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| Obviously this is me conquering the world…err my neighborhood.. |
But for some reason I tend to hold back. I tend to sit at home on my comfy couch, watching the same Gilmore Girls DVD for the zillionth time, eating the same food, same glass of diet dew.
I tend to only do what I have to. I had to find a job to make money. I have a serving and a coffee job, but I would love to work somewhere in the health industry and have yet to make that happen. Because I don’t really have to. I am comfortable where I am now.
I only just recently became outgoing enough to even ask questions at my small community college and actually made a couple of friends. But I haven’t met anyone new at my university. I don’t stay after class and tell the teacher I really learned something in class. I don’t have to…so I just get back in my car and drive home.
I only attend social events when I really have to. I am terrible at meeting people for drinks because it isn’t very comfortable to me. Even with friends. I am just more comfortable hanging out at home with the BF.
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| Yep I had to attend my own birthday party |
But a couple of months ago I decided to step way out of my comfort zone. So far, in fact that I still can’t believe I did it.
I bought a ticket to Blend Retreat. In Boulder Colorado. I bought the ticket without even knowing how I was getting there. Talk about an out-of-character move for this gal!
I haven’t mentioned it until this point because for awhile I wasn’t sure if I was actually going.
Yes I would miss out on a couple hundred dollars (I had already bought the ticket and room) just because I was too friggin scared to go out on my own and meet new people.
Even after I booked my flight to Denver I contemplated making excuses not to go.
This will be the third time I’ve EVER been on a plane. The being in the air part doesn’t concern me as much as getting lost in Denver International airport does. And connecting with my shuttle. And making it to the right hotel. And meeting people that I’ve read their blogs but have never seen in person.
What if they don’t like me??
What if they aren’t as nice or awesome as I think they are??
But looking back on why I bought the ticket, I realize why I must go. (Besides the fact that I’m getting more excited having joined the corresponding Facebook group and chatting with some of the gals.)
Because it makes me super uncomfortable! That seems weird to say, but isn’t it usually a good thing to be uncomfortable? In the sense of pushing past your fears and doing something new? Something that will grow you as a person?
Maybe I’m making a bigger deal than most would, but to me, flying by myself, navigating through a foreign city and meeting dozens of new people is terrifying.
But I think it will be great to share a weekend with a group of like-minded ladies. I mean we are getting treated to a lavish dinner, a choice of bootcamp classes, yoga and hiking in Colorado (I may just do all of the above) oh yea…and being in Colorado with some really awesome healthy bloggers!!
In addition to all of that, I will have met one of my goals for my new year’s resolution: attend a blogging conference! (Okay a retreat isn’t quite the same, however I cannot afford BlogHer in New York this year.)
Now onto bigger, more difficult tasks…what to pack??!!
If I make it back alive…I will tell you all about it! 🙂
What are you doing to push past your comfort zone?
Am I the only one that has issues meeting new people?
